God Always Makes Something So Beautiful Out of Our Trials
Let me start by saying it doesn’t matter how a woman brings a child into this world. Every form is beautiful in its own way.
10 years ago it was questionable if I would ever be able to have children due to countless X-Rays, MRIs, and just the trauma overall to my body due to Scoliosis. I had six back surgeries and my spine is fused all the way down. My orthopedic surgeon told me that whenever I decide to have kids to be completely ready that it would not be easy and that an epidural wouldn’t be an option. For years the thought of kids scared me because I didn’t think it was possible for me, and I thought if it did happen it would be a miserable experience... but then God....
God always makes something so beautiful out of our trials. My entire journey with scoliosis I have held on to Matthew 19:26 (Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”). At the young age of 15, this scripture spoke to me through the pain, tears, scars, and fear. 10 years later this scripture got me through birthing my child.
I was induced at 8:00 pm with Cytotec ￼(used before Pitocin). Not dilated at this point. They were planning on giving me Pitocin that next morning. But God.... God had a better plan. My water broke at 12:00 that night. I then quickly dilated to a 4 and by 2:00 am I was at a 10 and ready to push. Audrey made her arrival at 2:30 am.
During my labor, I spent a lot of time in God's presence. I prayed, and spoke the affirmations that Christian Hypnobirthing taught me. It goes down as the closest I have ever felt to Jesus. I can't help but think God intervened and blessed me with a short labor,(knowing I wouldn’t receive an epidural), he gave me the power, he gave me confidence, he gave me the peace. 🤍
Looking back on Audrey's birth it was everything that the doctor 10 years ago said it wouldn’t be. It was beautiful. It was powerful. It was magical. Jesus has used one of the hardest things I have ever been through (scoliosis) and turned it into so many different testimonies. Thank you Christian Hypnobirthing for guiding me and teaching me how to navigate through my birth in the most spiritual way.
By Katie Dowell