Natural birth to a C-Section, when our plans change, God remains.
Having been traumatised by a previous fibriod surgery, when I found out I was pregnant in December 2019, I decided to give birth naturally. I know it sounds even scarier not to depend on any medical interventions but the recovery from the surgery last time was disastrous, to some extent I even started to develop tokophobia, and had panic attacks during my checkups. So I did a huge amount of research into hypnobirthing, and felt so empowered knowing my birthing experience would be peaceful and positive.
When I was told that the shape of my pelvis wouldn't allow me to have a natural birth (it’s narrower than the type of pelvis women usually have and is shaped more like a heart or a wedge), I was shocked. I felt so disappointed that all the positive thinking and affirmations hadn't worked. I had to have a C-section. I started to unfollow all the hypnobirthing-related accounts, unsubscribed all the tutorials, after all that effort it was just another surgery again.
At the end of July 2020, the third wave of COVID-19 hit Hong Kong, somehow I felt safer not to join any yoga classes. In fact, not going out at all, I started to think an arranged C-section might not be a bad idea after all. I thought I had unfollowed all the hypnobirthing accounts but a new feed from @christianhypnobirthing popped up saying “God will carry you - Isaiah 4:46”, He sure did.
On the 8th of August 2020, my baby girl @harperllov was born, without any complications, and unlike my previous surgery, the pain was minimal. All the arrangements were perfect, my medical team was superb, it was a wonderful experience.
Sometimes when all the encouragements and all the positive thinking doesn't help, pray! God will carry you. Here is another verse for you: When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. — Isaiah 43:2